I hate writer's block. I've been stuck in the middle of a variety of projects for a long time, and I just can't seem to find my way out of my musicians funk. I tried a couple of new VSTs but it doesn't seem to do the trick. I'm just uninspired...I think it has something to do with the fact that I was in a car accident, and I broke my knee. I had to have surgery, and have been recovering...part of a 6 month physical therapy plan, and I may never get back to normal. Plus, I still wasnt really over my ex-girlfriend, until she fucked me over one too many times...but now that that's over with, maybe things might start looking up for my music writing issues. I dunno.

Does anybody have any good suggestions for free VSTs? I've got the tweakbench ones, and superwaveP8 and junoXD. Anything that's good that I'm missing? I think that might be alot of help too. Maybe some loops, or soundfonts that are really good?

This dude played duality from slipnkot...like it was fuckin cake. Check this shit out, dude is precise, onspot...maybe one or two misses through the whole fuckin thing. It's amazing, w00t!

Check out this badass mix I found, holy crap;

So i just downloaded a collection of manson albums, and I'm intrigued. What breed's heaviness and hardcoreness in music is usually the combination of harmony and distortion. More instruments, more interference, more heaviness. But in Manson's music you hear something a bit different...the distortion's there for sure, but it lacks the harmony I'm used to in music. The bass is far separated and distinguished from the lead, and the lead is...in effect it's own accompaniment. Just the way the music is constructed is odd. Particularly the track Lunchbox on "Portrait of an American Family" is super hardcore...but completely unharmonized in the traditional sense. You have a flat distorted guitar carrying everything, matched with some flat distorted synths, well mixed drums with a super deep kick, and a very distinguished and individual bassline, though its not too loud. There's some samples in there, yeah, but aside from the lyrics, that's about all there is in the song...it's really cool to see how simple music can be super hardcore...

Some people would attribute this sound to manson himself in all his glorious individuality, some to trent reznor in his endless guidance...but the truth is, its twiggy whose responsible for manson's awesome sound. Twiggy is the man, and a master musician/sound engineer/mixing guy.

So one of my songs finally made it to the best of the week list, hoozah! I love it, but the funny thing is, that song, "Where you from..." is one I worked on least out of the gambit I put up recently. I guess it goes to show, the best music comes from the heart. I didn't put as much time into revising it musicologically, as much as just tweaking sounds, and leaping on the first riff that came to mind to any particular thing. Made the process go alot faster, and apparently yields better results than previously attempted techniques.

What the hell, I figure I might as well stick around...plus, creating a community like this one is hard...fuck that. I think my time will be better spent developing a website/webring devoted to my own music.

My latest is a submission for the amen break contest happening in the audio forum. I've got some that I'm hoarding for a couple days, maybe I'll find a contest to drop them into or something, I dunno. I just hate it when a good song goes unnoticed because of lacking exposure. And I don't want to have to be a whore with my music to get some decent opinions on it.

My last few submissions haven't gone over as well as I'd have liked...maybe I'm loosing my touch, maybe I'm outgrowing this community, I can't decide. Of course, I'd like to think its the latter, but I still find things on the audio portal that blow me out of the water, so I can't confide in that just yet. My knowledge and usage of musicology still stands alone, although I understand that I could use a bit of help in the mixing department. Maybe I need a better utility, who knows?

The last few I've put up have been mostly me playing around, so it's not a good snapshot of my musical development. Thundercats HO! and 211 are both just me dicking around and not really trying to do anything special. This last one though, Onkocirca, I thought would've had a much better reception. I enjoyed it quite a bit, and had hoped ya'll would too. However, such does not seem to be the case.

It's whatever, I'm sitting on about a dozen songs that no one here has heard...nor will they probably ever. It took me quite a minute to learn the average age of all involved in this community, and I'm dissapointed to find it's somewhere between pre-teen and pubescent. How very disappointing, yet enlightening to learn that the best criticism comes from kids.

I'm working on my own music community, if anyone is interested in contributing or developing. The tentative URL is http://muzyik.freehostia.com but I'll buy a domain once i have the theme all figured out and the bugs and such smoothed down. Let me know if you're interested, I'd appreciate a bit of help on this one.

Selexa is my entry in the weekly audio contest with a psychadelic scheme. It ends tomorrow, so my stuff was entered just in the nick of time I think. The mixing was so ridiculous with this one, because the subBass is really really really loud and really really really low, so I had to mix everything based on the feedback/overdrive that I got from the subBass. I ended up dropping all my levels to close to zero, then compressing the master track to get rid of the overdrive. Took me forever to figure that out, but I got it finally and its done and in and everything.

I also spent some time experimenting with the WaveTraveler plugin in FL Studio, and thats how I made the samples of the woman's voice. The samples are included with FL Studio, but I took two different ones and spliced them together and chopped them and stuff, so it sounds like an original sample, sort of.

Finally figured out VST's too, and the whistling solo thingy near the middle is actually a worm from ProteusX's Xboard Performer sound bank. So thats cool, now I'll be able to use Proteus, along with whatever VST I can find. Should be some interesting things coming in the future.

I tried to enter my latest song (Creutzfeldt-Jakob) in the three instrument challenge in the audio forum this past week, but that didn't work out...I waited til the last minute, and finally found something worth working with like...5 o'clock on sunday morning. I worked my way all the way til the end of the song until...11 or 12 that afternoon, but all that rushing was in vayne. I was too late, bummer.

Regardless, I gotta a decent song out of, exploring a different style for my music. I think I may go back and revise it a bit...

For the record, Creutzfeldt-Jakob are the names of two scientists that discovered this brain disease, which they so humbly dubbed Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease. It's kind of a fucked up name for a DnB song, but it fits...with the twitching and such, its a perfect title, heheh. Look it up if you wanna know more about the disease, I'm a lab tech not a doctor.

This last song I uploaded uses audio from Total Recall, which I figure is probably before alot of your-alls time. If you haven't seen it, go download it. Its from like 1995 or some shit, great movie though, its about a Mars colony that's run by a totalitarian mining company which controls the air supply. I'm not gonna give away anything, so that's all you get.

Anyhow, I really like the way the solo turned out in this one, and it's alot longer than most of my songs... the vast majority of which are hosted on my humble voice acount, some of them I keep for myself, and my MGS remix is here. I used an ambient noise loop with this song, and I think it worked really well too. So all in all, as far as newgrounds is concerned, this is my best piece yet. Hope you enjoyed it, and be sure to let me know otherwise.